Expectation

People are full with expectation. Expectation from self, from family, from loved one, from friends, from teachers, from people around you..from people who are not around you, from people who know you and and people who dont know you..

Since I was a kid, I can remember my teachers expected us in 6Mawar to score UPSR 4As..siang malam buat extra classes for us, siap belikan buku latihan macam2 jenis, nak encourage us to study! Teringat one day tu exams mid sem i think, i was unwell..so i did not do so well in my maths. And the teacher was like.."En.Mohamad, saya rasa Farhana ni mungkin ade impact la mama dia pegi belaja, dia sekarang da tak score sgt.." owh my gosh, bersabarla cikguu, demam masa tu kan..uish uish,=p tapi yeah, that time i sort of have this phase where i was a bit numb..macam in my own imaginary world kot..sbb my mum further study in nursing for 3years,chewah rindu la tu eh hihi.ingat abah hari2 goreng telur mata kerbauu jeee!

Kat STF plak, macam2 expectation. "serikandi bla bla..kene ada sahsiah,kena buat anjakan paradigma" i remember all this. hihi i was so rebellious. This part of my life called..DEGIL. hhihi teenagers la kan.semua org expect us to be good, bersahsiah and rarara..but yes, that bebelan actually masuk jugak in my mind..hehe.All the teachers expected us to score score score. " awak kene dapat A1,kalau tak awak bukan anak murid saya!" fuh,this kata kata has led me to migraine masa ni.first time dapat migraine.ketar ketar tu tgn masa trial addmaths SBP, sbb dapat 79 which was A2! adoi dasyatnya expectation,cikgu cikgu,tp saya berterima kasih hehehe..

Then, masa matriks, hehe mmg takde expectation sgt! hihi mmg bersuka sukaaaa jeee laaaaaa...alahai rindu sab and nini! teman sepermainan. Makan nasik lemak sampai berbungkus2 sekali beli,punyalaaaa laparrr! and KMPP was just like heaven. everything ade. sampai kedai handphone pun adeee okayyyy ehehehehe =)

NOW...hmmm sighhh..extra extra extra punya expectation.from dalam rumah till balik rumah. everyday full with expectation from people..being a doctor well not yet, seriously susah nak describe..semua mende org expect you know.and that people forget, that this is a learning process..i cant be supergenius in one day! but i also cant be pessimist,can I? Yeah, its hard people,its harder than it looks! But how hard it is, i wont give up, i wont surrender..i'll learn and learn and hopefully Allah will permudahkan this journey,insyaallah~~~
Gambate my friends =)